sorry isn't enough

I don't know what's wrong with me.

That day was like a nightmare.

I know, the words that came out of my mouth were too much.

Not just a little. That's really outrageous.

I hurt him. I also hurt myself.

I don't know what got into me to make me say such evil words.

I trembled, half in disbelief when I saw his tears and so was I.

No, please not. This is wrong. This is my fault.

I really want to slap myself.

And as I expected, he wanted to leave.

He wanted to leave me.

I begged him to stay.

He ignores my apologies.

I'm scared. I begged even harder not to let him do it.

I am willing to do anything to keep him from leaving.

And he said, "I'm trying."

Then there was only the sound of me sobbing.

"I'm tired," he said again.

My cries are getting louder.

I no longer care what other people think.

"Me, too," I say. "Can we give up now?"

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